Friday, September 29, 2006

What's Mr. B been up to?

So last weekend, these two studs came on into the bar to enjoy a libation or two. This one pointed out that he had no idea what was going on with me as I never update the blog anymore.

Well he has a point…

Aside from the obvious, what has Mr. B been up to?

1) Work – working the two jobs has begun to take a little bit of a toll on me and my energy. Like any job, they have aspects that I love and aspects that I don’t love so much….The problem is it gets harder to ignore the things you don’t love so much when you have no time off. Sundays are my one free day which gets spend recovering from the week before…. I sometimes get what I call my Sunday Funk where I just get uber-depressed because I’m so drained and don’t handle day-to-day things so well. Luckily next weekend after the AIDS Walk I’m treating myself to a little vacation. A much needed three day break!!! I can’t wait!!!

2) Relationship – The relationship is going quite well. I’m actually quite smitten and finding myself excited and terrified and full of all sorts of really great emotions. It’s unconventional for sure, but there is such an amazing amount of honesty and communication that even the things that are uncomfortable are manageable because we can talk it through. Trust has been a big issue for me and something that has been broken many times in the past, so it’s nice to have a strong foundation of that from the get go. Lady Prada has even said “This is the most unconventional relationship you’ve been in, but also in some ways the healthiest”. I have to agree with her on that one….

3) Social – I haven’t really been going out all that much recently. Now naturally this is partly to do with the relationship, but a lot of that started even before the relationship did. A variety of factors I guess, saving money is one but just needing a break from it all is another big one. I know I sound like a bitter queen, but after awhile it just gets old. Going out and drinking just stops being fun, as does the morning after. So I’ve been actually focusing a lot of that energy into myself and trying to figure things out – small shit like ‘what should I do with my life’ etc, etc….not sure I’m close to that answer yet, but I’m at least headed in the right direction. Still MUCH to figure out, and actually the relationship has been very good for me in that front – challenging me to better myself in these areas of my life where I became very complacent.

4) Oh yeah and I’m not sure if I mentioned this but I’m doing this thing called the AIDS WALK…you should give money or sign up yourself :p

(has the horse been sufficiently beaten??)

Thursday, September 28, 2006

AIDS Walk Update

Hello blog-land!

I just wanted to give you all an update on how my AIDS Walk Fundraising is going.

Due to all of your generous support, I have not only met my original goal of $1,500 but have raised $2,075 (as of this posting) - placing me in the top 5 fundraisers. I am incredibly grateful for all of the assistance you have provided. The contributions given so far have been amazing (even shocking at times!). I also appreciate all the work you all have done in spreading word about the AIDS Walk to other people and signing up for the race yourself.

Not wanting to rest on my laurels, I'm raising my goal to $2,500 to raise an additional $425 in the remaining week and a half. I'm sure with your continued support I can reach (and exceed) that goal with no problem.

For those of you that have been meaning to contribute but haven't gotten around to it yet, it's not too late but we are just about out of time. Click here to be taken to my donation page.

For those of you who have already given, I again thank you for your support and ask if there are any of your friends that you can think of that may be willing to contribute as well. I'd appreciate it if you could forward this request along to them, tell them what an outstanding young lad I am (ha ha), and remind them that their donation is entirely tax deductible and goes towards a great cause.

And also a reminder that it's not too late to sign up to be on the DC Angels team and walk with us on October 7th. If you sign up for our team I pledge to be one of the first people to contribute to your own goal.

Once again I am truly amazed by all the generous support that has been shown by you all. It is greatly appreciated and words are not enough to express my gratitude.

With love,

Mr. B

(I admit to totally cheating on this blog post....the entire text is from an email i sent out to friends yesterday, just changed my fundraising amounts and new goal!)

Friday, September 22, 2006

More fun from You Tube

oh have i mentioned I'm doing this years AIDS Walk and collecting $$$$

Jesus Camp

this is frightening....

Thursday, September 21, 2006

Depressing Statistic Thursday!

From yesterday's Wash Post...

City Tests Reveal Infection Rate Double the U.S. Average

Click here to sign up for the DC AIDS Walk. If you want to walk with me I'm on the DC Angels team - I'll even be your first donation.

Click here to sponsor me.

Thursday, September 14, 2006

How to steal an election

explains a couple things, huh?

anywho - our Diebold Elected President loves Matt Lauer's Abs...

not that i blame him...

Who knew he was such a DILF!


Tuesday, September 05, 2006


Today marks my 27th birthday.

I like to view birthdays the way most people view New Years. It's a time to review where I've been, what I've learned, what I should have learned, the highs, the lows, the growth i've made, the regression i've made, the experiences i've welcomed into my life, the ones i shied away from, etc....

It's also a time to make resolutions and set new goals for the coming year. To continue to look at the difference between where I am and where I'd like to be - at least to the extent that I've figured out where I want to be.

A lot of this year was realizing that in a lot of ways I just don't know where that is.

It's been a year of questioning what I thought I knew. Realizing that sometimes the ground I stand on isn't as firm as I thought it was. Discovering that things are in a constant state of change - fast or slow it's always there. Learning that worrying and 'what ifs' have dictated my life for too long - as has living in the past while trying to control the future.

I feel I'm walking into this new year with a better perspective on things. Certainly feeling like I'm in a better head space than I've been in for the bulk of this year - therapy helps with that. Some new changes for the new year are already under way - new roommate and a new relationship which is entirely new territory for me on so many levels. I see 27 as my year for exploration. A year to do my best at letting go of expectations and appreciate things for how they really are and not how I want them to be.

Oh and in following a tradition I started last year, I've made a birthday mix to commemorate the experiences I've had in the previous year. All the songs reflect in some small way the events of my 26th year on this planet. The first track, Rilo Kiley's "Better Son/Daughter" ( lyrics ) probably best summarizes my year on the whole. It starts on pretty melancholy, but ends on an uplifting note - just like this past year......


01. Rilo Kiley – A Better Son/Daughter
02. Jem – Save Me
03. Anna Nalick – Consider This
04. Tegan and Sara – I Hear Noises
05. Leona Naess – All I Want
06. Jenny Lewis and The Watson Twins – You Are What You Love
07. Dolly Parton – Both Sides Now
08. Martha Wainwright – When The Day Is Short
09. Neko Case – Hold On, Hold On
10. Nina Simone – Save Me
11. Peaches – Fuck or Kill
12. The Decemberists – 16 Military Wives
13. Alison Krauss – My Poor Old Heart
14. Sarah McLachlan – Dear God
15. Hard-Fi – Help Me Please
16. Aimee Mann – It's Not
17. Feist (with Broken Social Scene) – Intuition
18. Tegan and Sara – This is Everything
19. Gemma Hayes – Work To A Calm
20. The Concretes – You Can't Hurry Love
21. Rilo Kiley – More Adventurous
22. Damien Rice – Cannonball